Yesterday God took a healthy baby boy weeks before he was to be born.  So many words come to mind: surreal, devastating, and heartbreaking.  But the word that resounds with me when I’m at my angriest for my family’s loss is senseless.

God chose the senseless act to take a life before it could even begin.  Before we could say hello to him, before we could hear him laugh for the first time, before we could swaddle him, and spoil him - but not before we could love him. 

I sit here, miles away from a grieving family, and I can’t help but be amazed at how affected we all are for a little man we haven’t yet had the chance to meet.  Doesn’t that almost sound senseless?

Life is a miracle that unites us all.  And maybe death is too.

The only time death can truly be senseless is when nothing is learned or taken from it but grief.   Death is a lesson in strength and character.

It’s a lesson in love.


  1. Sorry Jaime! It definitely is a lesson in love. It's amazing how much you can love someone that you have never met.

  2. It is absolutely senseless and for a lack of a better word unfair. my heart goes out to Timmy and Zhanna. the road ahead will be challenging. but that's the best part of having such an amazingly large family. they are an incredible source of love and strength especially at times like this. Xoxo Allicen

  3. Love you. You and your fam are in my thoughts <3

  4. What a terrible loss. Sometimes there is no understanding. We walk by faith not by sight, because sometimes what we see is unimaginable.
    Pam Pfeifer

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